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Welcome to my (Gwen Vogelzang) personal blog. Read about my experiences as a special needs adoptive parent, our family life, and the story behind publishing our first book “If I Squeeze Your Head I’m Sorry.”

So Much More Than Poo

We learned a lot about poo in our parenting classes.  How to change diapers, all the diaper options, how to wipe, how to handle rashes.  We were solid on poo and how much of it we were about to encounter.  We also learned CPR and got real serious about finding the...

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Two Hands

We pulled into Caroline and Mark's driveway in our boxy blue Volvo that morning.  I couldn't tell you what we talked about during that 20 minute car ride.  A lot of nothing.  What do you say when you're about to lay eyes on your baby boy, 3 weeks new?  What do you say...

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My Wednesday Night Sandy Lagoon

I was laying in a white lounge chair at the end of a row of 5 pregnant women.  The woman next to me was a sweet sweet friend from church, her head cocked toward mine in anticipation.  The others were strangers to me. There was powdery, white sand under the edge of our...

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Creative Mama’ing

Gretchen Saffles' "Proverbs 31 Woman" study has been next to my cream, wing back chair for the past couple months.  She's guiding me through what it looks like to walk as a woman of God.  So many lessons to be learned from this passage and study, but one has lept off...

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The Margins of Infertility

  It was a Tuesday I think.  I was in the shower and Tim was getting ready to bike the 13 miles to his office.  The kids were sleeping, the dog was sprawled on our white linen bedspread, staring at us longingly.  My always analyzing and deep feeling heart had...

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All is Not Fair

I drop my daughter off at school every morning, squeeze her at least 4 times, depending on her amount of love for me that morning, leave the building, and go on with my day.  I pick her up when the bell sounds, ask if it was a great day (because it always is) and call...

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Week #4

We've been journeying through this home school adventure for a little over 3 weeks now. Our little adventure doesn't look like most home schooling adventures.  I get the looks when I state the fact that we're homeschooling.  You know, the big eyes, the dramatized...

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Picking Ourselves Up Again

My son and I had a "morning" yesterday.  "Morning" =  it was a total cluster of repeated instructions, more repeated instructions, physically leading, resistance, frustration, more repeated instructions and me losing my cool at the end of it all.  I do that.  More...

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Way More Than We Can Handle

People say stupid shit.  All the time.  Every day.  No one is exempt from this truth.  We all have "stupid" just waiting to come pouring out onto unsuspecting targets, but I do believe there's purity in the midst of most of the stupid.  I have to believe we mean well...

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2 Books to Stick Your Face Into

I might have recently purchased 30 books at the library used book sale.  Ok, 32.  Book purchasing has become somewhat of an addiction over the course of the past two years.  A "problem" some might say.  Amazon and I have a pact that states I can not make an Amazon...

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Soul Food

This post, written by a birth mom, straight up grabbed my heart from my chest and vice gripped it.  We think we understand but we just don't.  As close as we are to our birth moms, we can't know.  Please read what beautiful Ashley has to say to all of us about her...

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